In vain

I am spending my days — & nights —
either reading books, journals, & news-
papers, or watching free-to-air tv plus
everyone of the streaming services we
subscribe to, searching for an ending 
that I can pilfer. Certainly some of the
things I come across set off a certain 
frisson, but the ancillary requirements

tend to negate them as possibilities. As
example, I do not have five centuries
to get myself into the state of being that
is deemed necessary to reach Nirvana.
Meaning I'll be going to bed hungry 
until the middle of next week at least.